New Hardware

I wondered a few days ago just how much hardware a body can handle before the software  gives up.


This is a photo of my morning and evening routine:

On the left  you see the IV meds I take and on the right the 2 nebulizer treatments .

Now this may not seem like much to you, however upon waking my routine is weight (yuck), blood pressure, temperature, heart rate, pft's, and blood sugar and logging it all in on an Excel spreadsheet. Then 

Then round one of meds, breakfast, morning walk with boys, then round 2 of meds- then all the above before getting ready for work.

This is the picc line for the IV's  that I wrap after the treatment so it  isn't seen at work:

Yeah it hurt and itches like hell, but it's something I need for now. On Friday it comes out and I get a port in my upper right shoulder. Left is already full -a Pacemaker is strategically parked there. They told me the port would hurt about as much as the pacer being put in.. great.. SO that's why the Rx of Oxy..

Along with all this is the emotional  ( I dread to consider the financial) aspect too. That is the part not many see. I'm still remaining positive and refuse any negativity in my life.

And thanks to wonderful -fantabulous friends on FaceBook I'm making it with laughter!

This post was starting out vastly different, then I spoke to a few of those wonderful friends and they had me laughing like a banshee!  

Moral to the story:

The software can handle the hardware as long as it has wonderful caring friends and family.

Have you told your friends how special they are today??

Maybe you should

HANDBOOK FOR 2010

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2009.  ( If only this were possible, I'd be financially broke)
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minute walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:

11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over-do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake than when you sleep.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past.
That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear & fades away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.....

Society:

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is; it will change...
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you wake up in the morning, thank GOD that you are alive. ( most definitely !)
39. Your inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

It's That Kind Of Day

Have you ever had a bad day and said that. "I'm having that kind of day." For a long time I changed it slightly and said "I'm having one of those lives."You know the kind. You can't seem to get ahead, you feel like the world is crashing in around you. And you seem to be the only one holding it up with your small, weak TWO hands.
Being one of the "chronic/terminal" humans in life, can make life seem daunting. Not only am I struggling against everyday obstacles like everyone else, I also have the medical struggle for survival. So many times I wish I only had to see one doctor one time in one year. Can you spell relief? Ever wonder what heaven on earth would feel like. For me, read the above sentence again.
This is where I talk about support systems. I had a truly magnificent support system with all three of my organ transplants. In fact, if not for my parents and family I might not have seen the first one. With the loss of my Daddy this support system seemed to crumble. I've learned mentally to handle times on end in the hospital alone. This includes holidays, birthdays, etc. I thank God I love to read and create. That and wear holes in the carpet or tile from walking the wing so much. I am a survivor.
 We ALL need a champion pushing us on to newer heights and accomplishments. A sounding board. A confidante. That One True Friend. I've always been a loner, mainly because no one wants to see someone waste away and die on them. No ONE. Been there, experienced that, overcame the hurt and grew stronger.
Throughout my life I could always count my true friends on one hand. Most times on one finger. Anyone can have tons of friends or be popular. I'm referring to that One True Friend.
That special friend you seem to have an honest trust with. You can tell this friend anything, even your deepest darkest secrets and fears. You have such a strong trust and truthfulness between you, you know beyond a shadow of a doubt they will NOT betray that trust and tell. Nor will they ever leave your side, even if you inadvertently push them away. This friend is always there in the shadows, quietly waiting for when you need them.
This friendship should be cherished and honored for it is so rare to find. There will be times of hurt, but this friendship will endure even when you think it will not. This is the support system we all need. It is equal on both sides.
I have had this one true friend only once in my life. I miss our talks. Our debates. Mostly I miss someone who will listen to all my fears about my health and still be my champion. Someone who was there all the time no matter what.
Now however it is my time to quietly wait in the shadows until I am needed. Whenever that may be. Dear friend, I am here.

Beliefs

I Believe...

A Birth Certificate shows we were born.

A Death Certificate shows we died.

Pictures show we lived!

Have a seat...Relax. ..And read this slowly..

I Believe...

Just because two people argue,

Doesn't mean they don't love each other.

And just because they don't argue,

Doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...

We don't have to change friends if We understand friends change.

I Believe...

No matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once
in a while, and you must forgive them for that..

I Believe....

True friendship continues to grow, even overThe longest distance.

Same goes for true love.

I Believe....

You can do something in an instant That will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...

It's taking me a long timeTo become the person I want to be.

I Believe...

You should always leave loved ones with
Loving words.

It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe..

You can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe....

We are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...

Either you control your attitude or it controls you..

I Believe...

Heroes are the people who do what has to be done,When it needs to be done, regardless of consequences.

I Believe...

Money is a lousy way of keeping score..

I Believe...

My best friend and I can do anything or nothing,And have the best time.

I Believe...

Sometimes the people you expect to kick youWhen you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...

Sometimes when I'm angry, I have the right to be angry,But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...

Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them, and less to doWith how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...

It isn't always enough to be forgiven by others;

Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...

No matter how bad your heart is broken,The world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe....

Our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,But we are responsible for whom we become.

I Believe...

You shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret.

It could change your life forever.

I Believe....

Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something
totally different.

I Believe...

Your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...

Even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you--

you will find the strength to help.

I Believe....

Credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...

The people you care about most in life are taken from
you too soon.

I Believe...

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything;They just make the most of anything.