Chronic A-Fib Living with or Existing ?

     September 24,2017 I woke about 3AM with a choking cough, due to the chronic rejection. This time nothing would move. I honestly felt it was to be my last few breaths. I managed a slight intake of breath and blasted air out giving it my one last time.   Finally- relief, I could breathe. 

But, I triggered my A-fib.  And it has stayed with me ever since, like a long lost enemy.  Believe me when I say - it is NOT a long lost friend.

All the other "episodes" would correct themselves within a few days. The one previous to this, I went to my Cardiologist and received an IV until it corrected back to my normal heart rhythm.

     If you follow this blog, you may remember I cannot take any anti-coagulants due to hemorrhaging from my right lung in 2014. A very scary summer I have no desire to repeat anytime soon.
However, I am again taking a chance.  October 6,  still having an erratic heart rate, I visited my Cardiologist. We had to stop the Multaq, not recommended for long term A-Fib. This has given my heart free reign on being all over the spectrum as to rhythm.  Metoprolol went from 12.5mg to 75 mg twice a day, started Digoxin, and Xarelto. Yes, I asked for a blood thinner until we can at least try ablation or anything to keep me from a stroke. Imagine feeling great and so well managed on minimal doses to having Saurons army of Orcs pounding inside your chest wanting out.
We also discussed me getting the Watchman implanted in my left Atrial appendage. This would mean no more blood thinners !

     In the middle of all this, I had other appointments, and did battle with my lung transplant team. They did not want me taking Xarelto or having ANY devices implanted at this time. My cardiologist called on the 6th, left them a message and we waited. Monday, I called them and did the one thing I most regret. I told them I was doing as my Cardiologist recommended as I had heard nothing from them. This is the culmination of a few mistakes that I question them making in dealing with my health.  My Cardiologist again called and finally got a return call.   What ensued between my transplant center may have them kicking me out of the program. I.E.  calling in a Rx for Levacquin (I cannot take) and then calling another Rx into a mail order for 3 tablets of Levacquin. Why would anyone call in an antibiotic a patient needs NOW, to a mail order that will take 2 weeks to get to you? Three tablets ??? Seriously ?!?  My right lung would laugh hysterically at that paltry defense, break out the catapults and gloriously defeat such a minute attack ! They also called in Gabapentin, to help with my cough, which is getting beyond controllable even with Tussionex. I can count on one hand the number of good nights sleep I've had in 5 years..  Once I read the side effects, I said nope, nada, no way. I am disappointed enough in how this is being handled, I refuse to take anything that could enhance that feeling. So, I am dealing with the cough. As usual.

     The 16th was an appointment for a CTA of my heart to see if I can be a candidate for the Watchman. We failed. I was too nauseaus and the contrast (which I had to get permission for from my kidney transplant team) would make me sicker.. Oh yay ! We tried again yesterday, after 3 tries they could not get an IV catheter to go in far enough to inject the dye, plus my heart beat was all over the spectrum.. 19-150-68-120-52-49-113  yep that was me...  Now we will try again on the 27th at the hospital where they will access my port instead of a vein.

       I am concerned. The contrast could damage my transplanted kidney. To insert the watchman they will have to create a small puncture through the septum wall between the Atrium chambers. The same wall that was repaired 26 years ago to end my Primary Pulmonary Hypertension along with my bilateral lung transplant. The electrophysiologist promised to plug that hole really well... Hopefully I can also get ablation done to correct this darned A-Fib.  My shortness of breath has increased 3-fold. AFib causes it as well as my chronic rejection. I need this corrected so I can tell when my rejection gets worse.

     It is a lovely sunny Saturday, me & Ozzi are delivering goodies to a local pet rescue and then me, him & the Orcs will relax outside and try to read an uplifting book.

I.Am.Still.Here.
I.Am.Alive
I.Got.This.


   

Is There Ever A Normal?

     In June when my husband looked at me and oh so seriously stated, "Well it is that time of year for you." I wanted to dig out my cast iron skillet and go "Southern" on that mans head. period. I believe my look, said it all though.

    True to form, I had an appointment with my Lung Transplant clinic on July1, and was promptly admitted. Though I still wonder why. Yes, I was coughing terribly. Yes,  my PFT's were down. But seriously folks, It's that time of year. I have always given myself IVs . I mean who has time to wait for a nurse twice a day? This is my life, and I choose to do them myself.

     One of the new Transplant Docs has a wonderful way of making his patients feel secure and safe. Just like Dr. Baz used to. I was feeling so horrible, I fell for it- hook, line and sinker. I agreed to be admitted, start antibiotics and have a bronchoscopy in the morning. I was put on the overflow wing the 8th floor. At first I was hesitant, until I realized these were all the nurses I had when on 11 in the old building ! It was like old home week, we talked, chatted and laughed- well until Dr. Salgado popped in and said I was being moved to 5. Deep depression sets in... My feeling of safeness slowly dissipates..  My nurse Eron, accessed my port and I did not even feel it! That is a huge Hooray for me.

    For those of you who have never had a port, it feels like a small nickel size circle under the skin on one side of your chest.  This is accessed with a special needle, and many make it feel like they are trying to pin you to the chair when inserting the needle.  It never comes out- so my other veins (which are non-existent) get saved.  The only down side is, when they change the needle there is no new place to go into. Yep, the needle goes into the same slightly sore spot your old needle just left.

   Needless to say, I was only in for one day. I could not wait to leave ! A letter to hospital Administration is in the works. This was the most traumatic experience I can remember. I was discharged with A-fib on July 2 and to this day still  have it. This may not seem like much to you, but I had been A-fib free for close to one year and we were decreasing my meds. The stress caused by 2 nurses on 5 started this.Suffice it to say, trauma nurses should not be lung transplant nurses. They should not be required to leave the room of a trauma patient and decompress to care for a transplant patient on the mend.

    Enough on that subject. The situation we have fought for 6 years has happened. The "pus" and infection from my right lung has now started settling in my left lung. They should have yanked that trouble causing PITA  when I asked years ago !  So now my natural progression will more than likely speed up. I have faced this before, and will again.. Only this time there will be no new transplant - the only light at the end of the tunnel will be final freedom of pain.

     So I came home with IV antibiotics, nebulizer again twice a day (which will be continuous) and alot of prayers. My IV was finished on Friday. Yay for a decent shower!  So now I am hopeful the A-fib will correct itself. I have gone from 12.5 mg of Metoprolol twice a day to 50mg twice a day.  I can barely stay awake as this slows not only my heart rate( which it hasn't as of yet) but the rest of my body as well. Naps are no longer around 1PM, but 11Am  lasting until about 5PM. So basically, I have no life except for auditioning for the role of Sleeping Beauty :)  This medication also creates nausea and what feels like an intestinal flu but is in reality a side effect. Yes, it is too high a dose for me. I guess the next option will be to shock my heart back into a normal rhythm... They better start convincing now for say 2017 right?

     I'm ever anxious to get my body and life back on track and start living again. No this is not a complaint, just stating a mere fact. I have a Bucket List to experience with Ozzi after all- who has recently had a tumor removed from his nose. We are quite a pair in our old age ain't we?

The heart will have its way...

     I realized that I forgot to update my blog as to my heart rate issue and the heart monitor.
Well to  make a long story short I went to the Cardiologist, he wasn't there, so I asked the pacemaker nurse
why I needed a heart monitor since I had a pacemaker recording every beat my heart makes?
The response I received was that a heart monitor records everything in real time.. Doesn't the pacemaker?
Well, yes. I then asked that since this only happens about once a month, and I just had my monthly occurrence what would the monitor record?  Nothing was the answer.. So she ran a copy of my pacemaker and I came home.
   Wednesday morning I received a phone call from the office and the doctor wanted me to come in earlier and speak with him...  Uh oh..in trouble now...:(
     I recently went to the doctor and we had a nice chat about my options. I now have Atrial Fibrilation where I had a type of Ventricular Tachycardia before. The ablation worked last time because it is not as invasive and difficult as the a-fib.. Lucky me again.. I had the option of taking meds as needed when the A-fib started like I was doing, taking a daily med to keep my heart calm (yeah right), or trying for ablation.
since ablation for A-Fib is more difficult and does not work as often I'm not ready for this right yet.
     I've chosen to take Multaq at a half dose to keep my heart calm and prevent the A-Fib from happening.
I wanted to do something because the longer a person stays in A-fib the more likely they are to have a blood clot or a stroke. Count  me out on this score. I have enough to deal with, without dealing with this too.
Feeling a thousand butterflies beating to get out of my chest is bad enough, but to worry about blood pooling in my heart and a stroke... Not this girl..
    Sometimes I truly wonder if I would have been better off receiveing a heart and double lung transplant like I was originally listed to receive.. I am positive my doctors (all of them) will have reasons to veto this train of thought.