Being Thankful

Never forget... Things could always be worse...
Be thankful... you woke up
Be thankful... You are Alive...

 Obstacles are just that.. A minor bump in your journey that makes you stronger.

Finally News I can Smile About !

As I mentioned in a previous blog post, I've been bleeding internally since 2013, in 2014 we found it was from my right lung. Yeah the bad one from my 1st transplant 24 years ago..
I guess after all this time, it has a right to protest the captivity :)

While my transplant team also sent me home in 2014 with the statement, there's really nothing more we can do, and I accepted it to a degree, I also decided this was my fight.  That being said after 3 long years of becoming thoroughly exhausted from that long 3.5 hour one way drive to Shands and waking at 2AM to do the drive......  My PFTs  have risen !!!  My lung function is better, not where I'd love it to be,but better. We lungers will happily take any good news we can get..I watched as  my lung function has steadily declined over the past years but three months ago it stabilized...   Insert brief hope here :)

This visit they are up a bit ! I'm feeling better, not where I would like to be , but enough to get housework, yard work, etc done at my own pace without massive fatigue and continual naps.
Ozzi may not be happy with me skipping an afternoon nap here and there, but I will certainly  make it up to him somehow.

I have stopped all nebulizers. The excruciating ear pain causing the worst case scenario of vertigo imaginable brought on that decision.  It will also save me close to $400 a month. I know I will go back on it sometime soon,, just not now. I also recognize that the summer months June, July & August are my "magical" months.. You know, the ones where I end up in the hospital and have to claw my way out. I am preparing for those months, and this year am determined they will be my friend- no hospital.After all, what is 3 measley months out of 12 anyway?

We transplant patients don't "bounce back" like healthy folks, mine took 3 years..

All my other issues are still with me, but this I had to shout. I have worked hard for this glimmer and I intend to celebrate !

Oh, and the best yet ! Kidney and Lung Transplant told me, they didn't know what I was doing- just KEEP DOING IT ...


Be someone's Miracle- Become and Organ and Tissue Donor

It's Just Me Again !

     I have been regularly berating myself for not posting, however once again why post if it's negative. I've been in that mood of "just nothing to say" for awhile now. The day to day struggle can wear a person down, and reminding myself to just get up and do it, doesn't always work.  The mind is a powerful thing when it does not want to budge.
     After discovering I was experiencing every side effect from long term use of Colistin, I have been changed to a different inhaled antibiotic. I am now using Amikacin, and it was amazing the first 3 weeks ! I had no cough, I was sleeping ALL night and my energy returned. Sadly so did an excruciating earache. Not just the ear, this extended all the way down my neck - ear canal- type of ache. Nothing worked. I then discovered in rare circumstances it can cause hearing loss....
Hmmmm choose between hearing or having my lungs.. Difficult choice huh? I stopped the Amikacin for a week,, and the cough returned with a vengeance. Yes , even to coughing so voraciously I lost my breakfast in the mornings. We decided to try once a day and see if kept the infection at bay. It did.. Well until December, when the nebulizer paralyzed my vocal cords... Yes ... completely.. I had no .. NO voice.. and it was painful to try and talk.
      Eleven days in the Florida Keys in relative quiet. I guess my husband handled it quite well ;)
It was still the best and warmest Christmas to date. We played with a family of Manatee that were residents in the marina, and basically enjoyed the sunshine. My neice and her family came to visit for a day, being stationed in Key West, made Christmas away from family, better because there was family. Went into Key West for a day and Ozzi discovered the famous Key West Roosters !  We tried to visit again and after finding NO parking chose to go back to the campground.. Money saved-right ?
      Ten days on Cipro for Diverticulitis caused me to once again stop the Amikacin. I had severe Vertigo and didn't need to give it anymore help. Now it is with regret, that I go back on schedule with the nebulizer, I feel the need to fight this infection once again. I will admit, the freedom of being away has been such a heavenly relief..
For now.... Back to the grindstone....  Well until the earache retuns again anyway..

Life is a series of things we simply don't want to do... Do them anyway.. It matters ..