And The Fun Continues

     The last month or so has brought about changes and new /old decisions.
I am now also seeing a local Pulmonologist, in case of emergency. This was my suggestion so a physician here will know of my status should I need to go to a local hospital. Which would be absolutely one foot in the grave for this to happen. I have a dreaded fear of my local hospitals, that they seem to reinforce at every turn. If you are an organ transplant recipient, you will agree that your transplant center is leagues ahead of local hospitals ~hands down.

     If I am not blogging much this is for two reasons. When I do not feel well, I honestly haven't much to say. I become a serious introvert, quiet, and conserving my energy for getting well. Plus, who wants to always hear me whine about aches, pains, "I'm getting worse !" on Social Media. To me it's a downer and at this stage of my life something I need to avoid. I understand the occasional, but it is the constant and somewhat depressing outcry that can bring us all down, and not who I promised myself I'd become. I want my friends/ family to laugh, smile and keep me encouraged. I do feel for those who aren't feeling well or facing life altering changes, and I feel very deeply for them. This is just my viewpoint on me. Secondly, I rarely make it to my computer to do much of anything when I feel bad. Since my days already consist of multiple naps, when feeling bad there is usually more napping involved ~ and let's be honest. Would you turn down a great nap, in a cool dark room, covered in soft blankets- for typing on Social Media?

      But I digress. Over the last month, I have found I no longer qualify for a Handicapped parking permit. That was a Prednisone  moment for a few days. Me? who can barely breathe on a good day, no longer qualifies. Sure... that's our wonderful State Legislature and my Senator in particular Nancy Detert hard at work for us.  I spoke with her office about changing the laws back or giving a bit of slack to those of us who must park at the end of the lot and struggle to get to that Blessed air conditioning- and was referred to the Department of Motor Vehicles ! Imagine that, passing the buck when she had a hand in  making these rules tighter.  I consider myself a responsible Handicapped Permit person. On days when I feel good- I walk, there are others who need that spot more than I . However on those days when it is a struggle, yes I need a bit of assistance. Well, apparently not now.

     This last month has also seen a few changes in my health. I am back on my antibiotic Colistin until my Amikacin arrives. Plus who really wants to waste $400 of medicine?  Hopefully the Amikacin will "jolt" my lungs into fighting, well my left lung anyway. I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not, but I have my nebulizer next to my stationery bicycle. So, I must either sit on my bike or ride it , albeit slowly while I nebulize. Great way to psychologically make me exercise- right? I thought so too. I am however very winded when I finish, due to the ride and the Colistin trying to tighten my airways . Plus I am always fatigued and ready for nap #1. Hopefully the Amikacin will change this, update to follow.

     The main event in my month happened yesterday while talking with my Coordinator. She asked if I was opposed to going back on oxygen. That brought about a flood of memories and thoughts.  Opposed? No.. Do I want to ? No  Did I eventually know this would happen? Of course.  We discussed using oxygen while I sleep and exercise. Which is usually the norm in starting use. I used to sleep the sleep of the dead when I had it eons before. AND no massive headaches when I woke up. I breathe shallowly during sleep, I can create a headache. It sometimes goes away after a few hours and sometimes not. I also noticed during my last clinic visit, that walking from the waiting room to get my vitals done, my O2 sat level had dropped to 90 but slowly came back up to 95. We lungers have secret ways to get those sats back up ;)  So this might just help a bit in the long run. We're gonna wait and see if the Amikacin helps with the symptoms, yes the Colistin causes headaches as well and take it from there during my next visit in October.

     I have been hesitant about oxygen, as this is a new step for my husband too. He met me just after my 2nd lung transplant and hasn't really witnessed me being sick. Well the hemorrhaging last year was a huge wake up call for him. Plus, depending on the oxygen I get, it can be noisy. Not really conducive to romance either... We shall see..

     All changes in lifestyle, but nothing that cannot be overcome. I have always viewed using oxygen as giving my body what it vitally needs that I can no longer supply as needed, much like a person with a prosthetic. It  helps keep the rest of me oxygenated and healthy, while the lungs deteriorate. Merely being honest.. I am known for the bold truth.

Oh ! I almost forgot... I will be checking off an item on my Bucket List sometime soon ! I can't tell- after all this is Social Media and can't let "the cat out of the bag" just yet. More to come though !

Have a happy, joyous life no matter your health issues. You are here, and your family and friends are delighted !